Exploration of a Blank Canvas

On November 1st 2013 I began a One Year, Black & White adventure of self-discovery.

I have felt quite stuck in my life and in my person for some time now.

I have found that so much of what I am like today has come from external influences 

so I've decided to give myself the opportunity to rediscover the things 

that are innate...the real me...the intended me. 

The art that I create comes out of me and is a reflection of me.

So I have also been stuck artistically for a long time.

I am a very visual and experiential learner which lead me to this 1 year plan:

Begin identifying and shedding what has been added on.

                         

                       * B&W clothing. Colored accessories ok, for now any way.
                       * Set myself free from unnecessary rules in my head.
                       * Let go of judging myself.
                       * B&W mediums. Other materials ok to be colors for now.
                       * Do art for enjoyment!

My hope, my vision, and my prayer is that I will begin to see and understand 

myself more clearly.  And, with that, I will have the opportunity 

to make new choices and, hopefully, 

begin a transformation that is leading me to be a better person.

Let the Explorations begin!

I WILL POST AGAIN BEGINNING NOV. 1, 2013

I apologize for dropping off after just 4 days. 

Got stuck and did not choose to push through.

As you can see, there is a new Blog Title.

I have a new direction and will begin on Nov. 1st.

This time, there is no getting stuck!

Details coming.........

Joy = Life!

death = loss

Like The Frustration of.... 

a Blank Sheet of Paper

by christine davidson

I am older now but still feel like I'm young

My body tells the truth

My mind sometimes plays dumb

You see, I am sure all the memories are there

Yet, just as quick as I get a glimpse of one

I search for it and find it nowhere

Sometimes I will try with all my might

To remember what I forgot

O how it keeps me up at night

I think it's an important piece of the puzzle

So I just won't let go

I've got to know

It's like my brain has been covered with a muzzle

This is a battle I just can't win

God knows I've tried

Again and again

Now I'm mad......I'm done!

I don't need it anyway

My mind slips back to playing dumb

Until next time

death to life

The loss of animals in my life has been painful and although not all have died, I have grieved the loss of each. As I did today's project, I was amazed at the reflection of my experiences!

Here is what I observed in my head, what I saw, and what I perceived...

First, I put my pain in a tidy little box. 

Include my emotions & memories, then tie it up.

A river felt like a good place to let the grief softly slip away.

Place the box in the water (take that first step of letting go)

and swooooosh......it's gone!

A little time goes by and I realize that it actually had gotten caught in a cranny in my mind and is now whirling round & round.

Sometimes I need help, 

someone to come along and give a little push.

Relief.

It's gone again.

Oh no, here I go again. Whirling. Now back a step or two.

Then, with all the strength I can muster, with a thrust,

I'm free again.

This time, I forgive myself.

I can get back on the path toward the next part of this journey.

Day 1

After drawing this image, it lingered in my mind and eventually revealed:

LIFE = LOVE             DEATH = UNFORGIVENESS

When I reread the suggestion "fits in the palm of your hand",  realized I blew over that part.

But, look!  The heart fits in the palm of stick man's hand :)